So I have been in love with the same guy since I was just a little girl. We went to the same school all through elementary school until we were about 16. We were “friends” I guess. I was so attracted to him from the beginning, and when we were little he used to like tease me and stuff, then growing up a bit we started talking more seriously, I enjoyed every second in his company. I loved his humor, he made me laugh so many times. Sometimes he defended me, he said sweet things, but we never went further that that. But I always felt like we had a deeper connection. I could look into his eyes and just get lost. Like everything faded away, time stood still and everything went silent as my legs went weak. I was so in love with him, really deep in love at times, but it did fluctuate a bit over the years. Now I haven’t seen him in a few years, I still miss him extremely much.. So last summer I sent him a message, just saying “hi, how are you, I’ve been thinking about you” or something like that, but he never replied. I was kind of crushed, I thought he would at least answer. But time passed and now, a few months ago I decided to give it another shot. So I basically told him (maybe I should’ve said it in another way, but I didn’t) that this is the last time I try to reach out to you, I’ve been thinking about doing it for some time. If you ever feel like meeting up tell me. And I waited and waited. Still no answer. I was not really surprised. But I was kind of sad. This was in february maybe. I knew he was and is shy, but come on. So I don’t know what to think. I don’t want to let him go. I’ve never felt so strongly for anyone else, and that’s what I can’t forget. So what do you think? I feel kind of lost and stupid.
.
