Hi, I was really hurt when I guy I really liked left the country after we had been seeing each other for a while. We had never even kissed but I felt like he liked me and he would never talk about it. We were kind of like just friends but he was so gorgeous that I felt inadequate and shied away when he wanted to kiss me once. So he left and I was quite confused and down about it. Then I ended up making out with another guy who I don’t know all that well who had just split up from his girlfriend. He felt me up a bit but it didnt go too far. We told each other we didn’t love each other but he said he liked kissing me. I was vulnerable and resisted for a while but a couple of weeks we had a sexual encounter. I stayed the night and he kissed me a lot. I was fully naked on my upper body. I gave him a handjob but he didn’t touch me below the waist. we kinda had outercourse but I didn’t fully sleep with him. Then I ended it and we haven’t seen each other since although I see him around. I want to know if he was messed up by that encounter (guy 2) and if he still thinks about me. Also I want to know what guy 1 really feels. He is coming back to visit soon and I don’t know how to deal with it. I really fancy him and we get on well but I don’t want to risk falling in love as he is not serious material.