It would be nice to be able to have a problem-free life. I myself have had alot of problems. What I believe though is that God allows these things to happen so we can help others who are currently experiencing what we have been through. God can turn those ashes you are experiencing into beauty and victory. Hard times and suffering hurts but it strengthens our character and makes us more sympathetic to the pain and suffering on others. Honey, I know this isn’t what you really wanted to hear, but if you need to talk, please let me know.